The answer is no. No one can know, not even you. As I’ve said before,

Aris, someone once asked

If you are in every one of my zines.

Yes, you are a crucial part

of my work

  If you are not at the end,

you are at the beginning

To be honest, I’ve already said more here than I wanted to. Aris is a fictional character more than anything else. My writing would be completely different without you.